7 November 2025
Two dreams last night split by waking up. The first was a recurring one where I am flying alone high above an urban downtown landscape, thousands of feet in the air. But it's not exactly flying, I'm not flapping my limbs to propel myself. I'm sort of floating, buoyant in the air. I can control my movements up and down in an indirect way, similar to how one might bring an eye floater from one's periphery into their direct field of vision by noticing how looking in a certain direction affects the movement of the floater. In the air I'm aware that I'm feeling a little bit of fear, but it's mostly blissful. Somehow I trust completely in my body's unique relationship to gravity. I can't detect the presence of any other humans from where I am, and there isn't any sound aside from the wind in my ears when I move through it. I simply bounce/float from skyscraper to skyscraper, just gently pushing off of a corner of each one I encounter rather than landing full stop. Each time I have this dream, I'm kind of figuring out the physics of it at the start, but by the end I have worked out how to navigate through the sky at a comfortable pace and it becomes pretty relaxing. Last night I had that dream, woke up around when the sun was rising over London, and then fell asleep again for about an hour. In that hour I had a much quicker dream where I was high in the air again, but this time I was over a bright aquamarine-colored ocean hanging by three silver balloons. I felt more fear in this situation, aware that the balloons were suspending my body and I didn't inherently have the power to float like in the first dream. After hanging for a minute or two, I willingly let go of the balloons and rocketed headfirst toward the water, picking up speed as I approached the surface. As I plunged into it I woke up, sat up in bed, and an ice cold shiver ran from my head to my feet—picture a laser-scan of an object from top to bottom as it is being digitized by some capturing device. It really seemed as though I was feeling the sensation of the water enveloping my body as I entered it.